{a walk through} psalm 37

As I write these words, it's Sunday evening. I made all the graphics for Psalm 30-40 a few weeks ago, so when I pop online to add my thoughts, it's usually the night before or the weekend before.

I opened it just now and let out HEH, Which probably doesn't sound attractive, but it was actually the beginning of some worship.

I needed these words this minute. I just spend some time calling out to Jesus, asking Him to act in my living situation. I just sang the words all of my life, in every season, You are still God, I have a reason to sing, I have a reason to worship and I mean them will all of my heart.

I needed to take a step back from the pleading and simply worship Him for who He is.

On church we sang that song, desert song, and it was absolutely incredible. Because I felt freedom, and I felt the church feel freedom. There is power in praising God regardless of our circumstance. This video below is of the two ladies (and a dude right at the end of the video) who sing the song at Hillsong. I really really encourage you to take the few minutes to watch it. I'd seen it before but seeing it again Sunday night was just powerful for my heart. And it made me cry.

The way is unknown if I try to plot it out myself. 

If I trust in God, the way is known, because the way is His. I know Him well.

Commit your way. Check. however cautiously based on my sinful inability to fully commit to Him.

Trust in Him. Check. however tentativally since sometimes I forget that He's God and that I'm actually not God.

He will act. Obviously. 

 

best friends are to sunny days

I interrupt your Monday in hopes that you are doing well, and finding joy in whatever kind of day you find yourself facing.

I shared a couple weeks ago that I've tentatively been raising my hand asking Jesus for more suffering, knowing that suffering leads to hope.

Well, He has been faithful in answering my prayer. While my feet have felt a little unsteady amidst the season I'm walking, I also have noticed that my trust in God isn't wavering. This isn't because I'm super great at trusting God. It's that He's been sifting my heart of control.

I met up with my mentor on Saturday and just talked about the word trust. It's one she really challenged me on during this past year because she knew I was claiming that I trusted God yet was also really holding onto control. I told her that I'm so thankful for this past year, and for her challenges, because now when I use the word trust, it holds so much more meaning to my heart.

Last night I went for a walk with my best friend Christy. I got ice cream, she got coffee, we sat and chatted, then we walked and chatted, then we sat on swings and chatted, and then walked and chatted some more. It was a perfect little evening.

She mentioned that my blog seems to be filled with hope lately. That really excited me, because I am filled with hope.

P.S. I'm hanging out over on my very lovely friend Moriah's blog today. Check it out!

just a few of my friends

Here are three of my favourite posts by friends from this past week. Read them. I bet you'll be encouraged by them.

Mackenzie shared about the reason why she writes, and how God made her absolutely the right way. She caught my heart when she said:

The things we lack create space for Jesus to show His faithfulness and power - and when we know that we are lacking, we see that Jesus has all we need. 

Lindsey shared about keeping her second pregnancy quiet for a while. There was something in the sweet honesty of her words that really captured me.

That if something does go wrong, He is sovereign.  I'm thankful that I can cast my cares on Him because He cares for me.

Jessi shared that her brave button is broken. My heart can relate to that.

One thing you should know about me is I absolutely do not approach any situation with confidence. I can put on a mask of "can do", but my greatest fear in America is being found out.

{a walk through} psalm 36

I love the end of this verse, where it says that in your light do we see light.

Because that makes absolute sense to me.

I look to Jesus because He is the light of the world. He is perfect light.

There is no other light. All else is darkness, or dimmed out fake lights. 

I've eluded to random things that are hard in life right now. It's only when I turn my face away from the light that I get overwhelmed by them. If I keep my eyes forward, toward the light, toward the fountain of life, I remain confident.

A confidence not in myself. A confidence in Christ. 

It's a perfect confidence.

The next big thing

Last night my friend Ariana was over for dinner. We sat on my comfy couch and talked life. Mostly we talked about how everybody we know is either getting engaged, married, or having babies.

At one point I said something along the lines of sometimes I wish people would stop asking "what's next?" and simply ask "what's now?".

I've never really voiced that thought before, but it has crossed my mind.

It can be hard as a single girl to constantly feel like everybody is waiting for me to fall in love, myself especially included.
For the engagement.
For the marriage.
For the babies.
For the promotion.
For the grand-children.
For the next big thing.

For the whatever it is everybody is waiting for you to do.

It gets tiring.

So I'm letting yourself and myself off the hook today.

Let's simply be content in whatever season we're in right now, okay.

I'll try if you try.